I am done and am bringing in the summer with a nice long run.
Archive for April, 2009
I’m five pages until summer arrives.
All I have to do is finish this paper and summer is here, but I can’t seem to get it done. I keep finding new reasons not to work on this paper. Reasons like:
1) there is a sale on sundresses
2) I am brain fried
3) it’s beautiful outside
4) I hate my desk
5) I need ink for my printer
6) I’m too jittery from the coffee
7) I need to make food for the week
8) It’s Sunday, and by working on this paper I’m not following the 3rd commandment.
9) It’s not due until Tuesday morning so technically I have all of Monday to finish it
10) What’s 35% of my grade?
11) With summer here I should really paint my toes
12) I can’t concentrate unless everything is tidy, I should clean my room.
And I could keep going, but it would further justify that I’m about two seconds away from going to the mall to look for sundresses. I think I’ll bang out two more pages and then look for some sundresses.
I would love to compile a really great list of excuses…please feel free to leave some suggestions or thoughts.
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I should be working on a research paper right now, but instead I thought I’d warm up and write a blog post. I’ve been really putting this paper off for a while, at least two weeks. I’ve known what I wanted to write about for about that long, but haven’t done anything for it, until Tuesday.
While, I am considering going into “self-loathing” mode, I figure, this is what grad school is all about. I’m preparing myself for that tenured track professor job I so covet, that with all the budget cuts going on in this country, I will have to bust my ass to get come graduation.
Think about it…when there is a call for papers for conferences you write a 250 word proposal stating some brilliant argument pertaining to the theme of the conference, send it out and get accepted to read. Then two weeks before the conference you get a reminder about the dates, what room you’ll be reading in and more.
Then it’s crunch time, it’s three days before the conference and you have a twenty minute presentation that needs to be written. All the stress, the research, the writing, it brings you back to your grad school days, when you were cramming to write a research paper on Borges and Derrida. You were to “add to the conversation.” A conversation you’ve never been a part of…
So while it would be so easy to hate myself for waiting until four days before this paper is due to really get a move on, I’m going to look at is preparation for any other deadline that comes my way.
Thoughts? Memories you’d like to share? I’m going to focus now for real.
Well, instead of working on my novel/thesis I am researching a paper and instead of posting regularly on the site, I’m working on a research paper, When that paper is done, I’ll be back…with a short short for you guys. I didn’t get any feedback on the poem and still would like some. It’s still up if you’re interested.
My students have handed in their final paper for the semester yesterday and you know what? They stink.
It’s quite upsetting since they should be improving. What is even more upsetting is that they had TWO WEEKS to complete it. It’s no different of a paper assignment in comparison to the other writing they’ve done this semester. It’s very clear that they don’t care. The mistakes they are making are errors I’ve been commenting on all semester. These papers aren’t proofread and not well thought out.
At first, I thought I would inflate the grades. Maybe it’s me? I thought. But NO! I’m not going to compromise on my standards when I’ve seen my students write well. While it will lower the average grades for the class, I don’t want my students to get away with writing trash and be rewarded for it.
The mistakes they are making on these final papers are errors in formatting, lack of thesis, and organization, as well as an obvious neglect in proofreading. I’m sorry, but I’m frustrated.
While I still love teaching. I am convinced I have chromosome or something that makes me a teacher. I’m just wired that way. It’s just seeing college level students not give a F*&! is sad. Shouldn’t you be self motivated in college? I’m not saying, I want my students to all strive for A’s. I know that is not going to happen because sometimes you just want to get by, but not caring when you’re going to get a D or F is ridiculous. I am tempted sometimes to tell them “you don’t deserve to be in college,” but that would be mean and the wrong thing for a teacher to say.
I need some motivation to teach this summer. I don’t know where I’m going to get it. Do they sell motivation at Target?
Sorry I haven’t posted in forever, it’s the end of the semester and the work is piled high. I promise to get back on track soon. The update for the writing experiment is coming soon.